Phantasmagoria

was freaking awesome. Really scary, but amazingly well written and thought up. It's just kind of scary to know that someone at my school thought of all of this craziness. Oh well, it makes him sort of brilliant, and twisted. But it's cool-one day I think that play is going to be famous, therefore I'm keeping my ticket and playbill. If you went, you should too. I'm just saying(=

Also Trojan Olympics in exactly 6 days. I'm getting super nervous and excited. I can't figure out which one I am mostly, but both are okay. I can't wait to see everyone dressed up throughout the week; they'll be looking so cute!

Five days until mine and Branden's birthday and it doesn't even feel like it. I don't even feel 15. I don't know, I think I just want to skip my birthday this year. HAHA! It'll make Hawai'i (woo!) come faster(=

By the way, you are the equivalent of my butthole. I hope crap fills you up. Oh wait... it already does. You're full of crap. Now get over yourself you arrogant piece of work.

Goodness!

I've been such a busy bee, it's weird to have some down time to blog and let a few things out.

1. I love you guys and thank you for accepting my pathetic apology for my crazy PMS-like actions during this past month.
2. I know I haven't exactly been there for you like I should be, as your friend, but I am. Even if I don't say it, I'll always be there for you. Through the good times and the bad. You just need to let me know what's going on. I wish I could read your mind, but I just can't. Keep me in the loop, I'll help you get out of this crazy cycle.
3. You are pretty much like a brother to me lately, and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for telling me the truth, even when I kind of don't want to hear it.
4. You think you can play me like a guitar and everything will just be okay? Let me tell you something, jerkface! I do realize what you're trying to do. And though it may seem like everything's fine and dandy and you can get away with whatever the heck you want, think again. One day you'll lose everything and you'll have nothing and look back and be like "Darn, I really missed out." Yeah, that's right. Be disappointed in yourself, cause I'm over caring. Really. I am. I think.
5. You're a jerk too! You think just cause you signed a paper that says you're my mother, you own me? You need to take a step back and look at yourself. Because people are starting to see right through you. You best check yourself, buttface.
6. I know it seems that I've been neglecting you, but trust me, I'm not. I've been super busy, and because you're only 12, you probably don't fully understand. Just wait for when your in high school, I'll be the one neglected! Haha. But in all seriousness, just know that I love you, sister. You are one of a kind.

CAHSEE tests were definitely an insult. Do you really think I'm so dumb that I don't know how many centimeters equal 5,000,000 milliliters when 1ml=1cm? Thanks. It's nice to know that California really believes in its youth.

Spring officially begins tomorrow! I'm so excited for sandals, tank tops, TANS, and swimming! I absolutely love this time of year.

This next month is going to be wild. I love it(=

3/23: Blue and Gold Spirit day
3/24: Sophomore Decorations
3/24: Decades Spirit day (Sophomores: '70s)
3/24: Final Trojan Olympic Practice
3/25: Music Genre Spirit day (Sophomores: Pop)
3/25: Birthday dinner with family
3/26: Branden's birthday
3/26: I turn sweet sixteen (=
3/26: Super Hero Spirit day (Sophomores: Power Rangers)
3/27: Class Color Spirit day (Sophomores: Purple
3/27: Rally
3/27: Trojan Olympics (7-10PM)
3/28: Kevin M's birthday
3/29: Roxannne's birthday
4/4: Shopping/Sharks game with Meera
4/17: Junior Prom
4/19: Meera and I leave for Hawai'i
4/25: Meera and I return from Hawai'i

Super, super busy. Crap, I have two cuts from 3/17 and 3/18.

should have seen that coming

But I guess I kind of suspected it was going to happen, I just hoped that it wouldn't. Turns out, my instincts were right. "I can't come" my buttocks! I still can't help it. And friends "approving" aren't helping either. Haha, thanks guys.

Anyhow, dance last night=muy divertido! Even though only about 100 people showed up, it was really fun. I think/hope Spring Dance is now revived for good. I was really nervous about it not being a success, but from what I've heard so far, everyone like it(= Oh, and the picture of c/o 2011 officers and advisors is awesome.

Today I'm going to a Camp Everytown picnic. I'm excited. I miss and love those kids so much. They make me laugh... a lot. Last Saturday, at Chili's, I think I almost choked at least 10 times from laughing so hard. And I found out that Francisco is a very, very creepy guy. But he's funny... most of the time. And Evan has some funny pick up lines that are very nasty and porn-star like at the same time. HAHA! And Rio stuffs her lips. Hehe, good times. ILY guys!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

to Kwanzaa Striplin. You're a great lab partner. But you need to hurry up and buy a Trojan Olympics ticket!

Haven't had a birthday post in a while. Well, there's a lot of them in March, so no need to fear(=

Anyway, Spring Dance is tomorrow! I hope you're all going. If you haven't gotten a ticket yet, we've extended sales to tomorrow at lunch. That's right. We really want you to go. We've worked so hard on decorations and to make sure this thing happens. And it definitely is. So GO! GO! GO! No more guest passes, sorry.

Also, if you want a Trojan Olympic ticket, see me please!

Geeze. I'm so nervous. Who plans these things anyways? Oh well, I guess I do. I'm going to over think... again. Sorry in advance. I'm kind of hoping you'll back out. Or that you'll have a cousin's party to go to again. Haha. But I'm kind of excited and hoping you won't. I'm so nervous! Wow. Tomorrow's going to feel like a million years. I think this is the reason these things aren't planned.

i am now a driving woman

Sort of. I got my permit today(=
I was really nervous, but I don't know why. I waited my turn like everyone else at the DMV (which, by the way, has some mean people working there) and then they called my number: G206. I walked up to station 16 and the lady took FOREVER typing my information. After that nonsense, she said "Go take pictaa first. It good luck." No joke. Exactly like that. Anyways, so I go take my picture, sign my name, take my thumb print. The guy then gave me my test and I went to one of those stations with the walls so no one next to you can see your paper. I look at it, and what do you know? I got the same exact test that Joann let me borrow. I still got three wrong though. Oh well, who cares?! I passed. Now I am allowed to drive with my mommy in the car. Haha.

I feel accomplished and can now move on with my life.

By the way: DMV people are mean; kill 'em with kindness people. They won't know what to do(=

National Young Leaders Conference

Today I came home to more mail for me. Something from The University of Tulsa and this beautiful thing:



It looked so official that I didn't want to open it. I'm weird, I know. But I sucked it up and opened the seal. Yes, there was a seal. I told you, very official. Anyway, that picture above is the first thing I see and again, it looks super official, so I'm thinking, "There's got to be some mistake, right?" So I take out all of the forms that were in this little official envelope and it turns out, there is no mistake.

"Dear Courtney,
I am delighted to inform you that because of your outstanding academic achievements, you have been nominated to represent the state of California as a National Scholar at the National Young Leaders Conference (NYLC) to be held in Washngton, D.C. this summer 2009."

No pressure. You were just nominated to represent your state. And that's just the first paragraph. I'm so honored, but I don't really know how to respond to this. I mean, they included stuff about past conferences. People like Al Gore, Colin Powell, and Richard Riley, along with a bunch of other official people have spoken there.

Though it's kind of nerve racking, it's really exciting. I really think I want to go. There's six different sessions that are available, so if I do want to go, and my mom allows it, I think there's a good chance that I'll go. I'm still not one hundred percent sure I want to go, seeing as how money's kind of tight right now, but this is like a once in a lifetime thing and if a college were to see this on your transcript, you know they'd want you. Dang, I really want to go. We'll see. My deadline to sign up is April 17.

What do you think I should do?

week of no sleep

I know this week isn't even over yet, but I feel like I've had a total of 6 hours of sleep all week thus far. I know that's probably an exaggeration, but I feel so dang tired. Oh well, I should get used to it.

Anyhow, the first week back from Camp Everytown is almost over. It's so hard. You go to this camp, create a perfect world where there are no judgments made whatsoever, and then they throw you back into the real world to see you drown. At least that's how it seems. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved camp. I would go back in a second, no a millisecond. By the way: if you ever have the opportunity to go, don't pass it up for anything. It's one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. It may even be the most amazing experience I've ever had. Well, back to what I was saying... I didn't think it would be so hard. I thought people supported you after you went to camp. I thought they would be trying just as hard as you were to not pass judgment, to not be prejudice. I've got to say, I'm surprised; and it isn't a good kind of surprised either. People need to think before they speak. I've always known this, but Camp Everytown brought that thought from the back of my mind to the front. I never really knew just how much people did all this crap: make judgments for no reason, speak just to hurt someone, and stuff like that. I don't know. This just makes me realize how fortunate I am to be able to say that I've had the experience of Camp Everytown and how much so many other people need it. I wish everyone in our entire school could go at some point. I think it would definitely bring about the change we need.

I feel like I've been going, going, going all week, non stop. And it doesn't stop. Tomorrow I've got school and then Meera and I need to be at Cinequest at 5PM for CSF. Saturday morning I have to be at school from 8AM-12PM to tutor Spanish 2 kids who need help. Saturday night at 7PM-ish, I'm going to Chili's to reunite with my fellow Everytowners. Sunday is Mariel's and my Grandpa's birthday and at 3:15PM I have to be at school to set up for the WASC people's reception/tea type thing. I don't know exactly what it is, but whatever. Whoa. I just realized that I'll be at school every day until NEXT Saturday. Sheesh. Maybe I should just live there. Haha, kidding. I like my home... in Milpitas(=

If you haven't bought your dance ticket yet, buy it tomorrow! Pretty please?
Also, if you haven't bought your ticket for Trojan Olympics, let me know! I still have some left.

PS: I'm a bit confused at the moment. A bit confused, a bit hopeful, a bit a lot of things. CRAP. Being a teenager sucks sometimes.

miscommunication

Am I supposed to read into these things or not. And if I'm not, shouldn't you do the same? I'm really trying and I think I'm succeeding... to a point. At some point the texting needs to stop and there needs to be more. Unless there isn't anything more. In which case you just need to tell me straight up. I can handle the truth. And even if I can't, I'll deal with it. I'd rather be told now than later.

Anyhow, first Trojan Olympics practice last night. I think it went well. It seemed shorter than it really was but it was super duper hot in both gyms. My partner makes me sad )= Haha, kidding. He's a funny guy. I'll leave it at that.

I'm super tired. Tomorrow's the first day this week that I don't have anything scheduled to do after school, yet I'll probably end up staying late anyways. Oh, the joys of being dedicated. Nah, it's a good thing.

Sorry my life's so boring! Maybe next time you can be more entertained.

HELLA BOMBY!(= I miss you guys, oh so much.

PS: Happy 17th birthday, Daniel San Jose!

uber bomby!

Uber bommy? I don't know the right way to spell it, but those are the only two words that definitely sum up my Camp Everytown experience. I miss it oh, so much. No lie. I would go back right now if I could. The bonds we all created I think, and hope, will never be broken. We all connected while there and we all still have that connection. It won't ever break. Our circle will stay in tact, and like I said on Friday night, expand to more people throughout our school.

I am ready to see everyone together again. I can't wait until tomorrow morning. See you guys at 7:15 with your Camp t-shirts and Hug Necklaces! I love every single one of you.