it's been a while

but now i have time to blog about my life that is so uninteresting. well, lately it hasn't been so uninteresting. on the contrary, it's been quite exciting. it's been two weeks since our crazy homecoming week began, so let's start there.

class of 2011 won the spirit competition, our chili's fundraiser on october 13 was mighty successful, volleyball won on wednesday which was also a pack-the-house night, movie night was super fun, and friday was the homecoming game itself.

but not only was it the homecoming game, it was also the day of the rally, carnival, and alumni tailgate. our skit went alright during the rally; it could have been worse. i don't know how we did at the carnival, seeing as how i had to set up for the tailgate and work the tailgate that wasn't as successful as we'd hoped. but i must say the ribs were super tasty thanks to Mr. Mendizabal and the rest of the KIWANIS club. the tailgate was stressful and i was pissed off and overtired and upset with the world, but now looking back i'm glad i did it. i was kind of like the head of our committee, and i was the youngest member of it! even though we didn't make the money we would have liked to, it's a pretty good accomplishment for me. and, as expected, our varsity smashed on mountain view; did you even have to ask?

this last week was pretty much a recovery week for everyone, it was pretty mellow... and i'm glad. but now we're all supposed to be fully recovered and ready to dive back into everything. anyways, halloween is friday! are you ready? i know that cecilia, meera, and i are(:

coming up:
10/29-c/o 2011 fundraiser
10/31-Halloween
11/4-Election Day
11/5-sister's 12th birthday
11/5-no school
11/11-no school
11/17-c/o 2011 applebee's fundraiser
11/27-Thanksgiving Day
11/27-no school
11/28-Black Friday
11/28-no school

oh, and by the way HSM3 was the cutest damn movie i've watched in a while. um, can i have this dance? freaking adorable.

life is speeding before my very eyes

and i feel like i'm standing still. they days feel long, but the weeks feel short, if that makes any sense. i've said it before, but i'll say it again: i feel like i'm not doing anything to make a difference while i'm here. i mean, yes i'm involved in a bunch of activities at school and whatnot, but... it doesn't feel like it means anything. i know i sound pathetic and like a big whiner but i can't help how i feel. i want to DO SOMETHING. i don't know what. i want to do something that's dangerous, that will make me feel empowered, that will change something in my life that will make me feel like i'm not just taking up other people's air and space. i want to be someone. i want to mean something. i sound like a spoiled brat who's as selfish as can be. and maybe right now i am being selfish, i don't know. i just don't want my life to go by and me be unnoticed. after i'm gone, i want people to miss me. i want people to celebrate my life. i want people to want me here.

i don't know, maybe i am just a big, spoiled, selfish brat.