and i feel like i'm standing still. they days feel long, but the weeks feel short, if that makes any sense. i've said it before, but i'll say it again: i feel like i'm not doing anything to make a difference while i'm here. i mean, yes i'm involved in a bunch of activities at school and whatnot, but... it doesn't feel like it means anything. i know i sound pathetic and like a big whiner but i can't help how i feel. i want to DO SOMETHING. i don't know what. i want to do something that's dangerous, that will make me feel empowered, that will change something in my life that will make me feel like i'm not just taking up other people's air and space. i want to be someone. i want to mean something. i sound like a spoiled brat who's as selfish as can be. and maybe right now i am being selfish, i don't know. i just don't want my life to go by and me be unnoticed. after i'm gone, i want people to miss me. i want people to celebrate my life. i want people to want me here.
i don't know, maybe i am just a big, spoiled, selfish brat.
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uhm, i will always ALWAYS appreciate the fact that you're my friend. and i'll always remember you. come on dude, you're so awesome
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