emancipation

...possibly. i can't wait until i'm sixteen.

christmas eve

and it doesn't even feel like it. i'm usually home with my family and getting ready to prepare for a big ham dinner and play games and whatnot. but because i'm over here in san jose i'm home alone with my sister missing milpitas so much. oh well, less than tweny four hours and i'll be back.

last night was good though. i finally got my sister something. i know, kind of last minute, but i really had no clue what to get her. i finally just ended up with something really simple, but i think it will be ok. her style is really simple. oh, and i found this super cute shirt on sale for twelve dollars! and some exciting, but not so exciting stuff happened over the telephone. i'm just getting more and more confused, but at this point, i kind of like it(:

merry christmas eve!

why so serious?

yeah, i watched dark knight... or at least part of dark knight again. today was quite fun. actually today was one of the best days of this year. during the day it didn't seem so WOWtastic, but now that i'm looking back on it, i kind of loved it. everyone's all cheery and nice to each other and everyone's anxious to get out of class because we have the next two weeks off. and the big boxes and small bags of goodies making everyone happy and loving. if only every day and every minute was as great as today.

but, of course, as soon as i get to SJ everything changes. gosh darnit, i hate it here. i've asked numerous times if i could stop coming here, and it isn't happening. i even ask nicely, but all she ever freaking says is: "that's not gonna happen" with her stupid little sarcastic voice. do you have a better answer for me, please? you don't like me, i don't like you, we don't respect each other and nothing is ever going to change that so let's not force it upon ourselves, shall we? let's not make everyone suffer. all we ever do is fight, and who enjoys that? maybe you do, cause it sure seems like it. you accuse me of instigating these numerous, pointless fights, but i HATE these stupid fights. and more than half the time their about something stupid like forgetting to make a copy of a report card, forgetting to remind my sister to do something, not closing the door all the way. you don't need to go all crazy-eyed and bad-mouthed on me. i get it. my bad. i APOLOGIZE profusely. gosh, am i ever so glad that i only have to stay here til christmas morning. that's the one thing i do not like about this whole two week vacation thing: the week i'm over here, i have absolutely nothing to do and i just get into fights with that person who calls me her daughter. eugh. not at all. i will never willingly call her my mother unless it is a life or death situation. and i'm not exaggerating. she is not what i define as a mother. she never has been, she is not, and she never will be.

gosh, i really hope i don't turn out to be like her when i grow up.

i dislike

quote explications greatly.

i also dislike the fact that teachers like to give us so much to do right before break.

but, i do like that we only have TWO MORE DAYS!!!
i'm so excited, you don't understand. i'm sure by the time break's even halfway over, i'll be wanting to return to school. but i am pretty sure i need this break. i feel as if i've been in a prison cell forever waiting to escape, and now's my chance. only two days. can you feel the anticipation? right now it's depriving me of sleep, of any real thoughts, of anything. good thing tomorrow night will give me a distraction.

are you going to movie night? i sure am. it's muy divertido!(:

chili's baby back ribs

well, MHS class of 2011's second chili's fundraiser of the year was tonight and based on what i saw, i'm not expecting as good of numbers as last time. ):

on the not-so-brighter side, today was very dreary. at least the weather was. up until 4th period it was raining off and on and that was pretty much it for the wetness, but it was cold throughout the entire day, which wasn't too bad. tomorrow there's a chance of snow! i'm so excited even though the chance is a very slight one.

i'm not expecting tomorrow to be so great... i have a test in chemistry and math. math is pretty much my least favorite class. i have an alright grade, but i know i can do better. i'm determined to do well on this test so i'm going to go study right now.

one more thing: BOYS ARE THE MOST CONFUSING GROUP OF PEOPLE ON EARTH. but i love them(:

by the way: only 4 more school days until winter break!

it's beginning to feel a lot like winter

and i'm kind of liking it. i'm still not used to it, but i'm getting there. the one thing i don't like about the cold though, is that i turn an ugly, oompa loompa-ish orange color. other than that though, it's fun finding new clothes and sweaters and cardigans to wear.

other than the new weather, nothing else is really news-worthy. oh, well one thing: only 8 more school days until break! that's the one thing i keep telling myself to get through the week.

anyways, happy tuesday!

twilight mania

yes, i have hopped on the bandwagon. i've actually been on the bandwagon for a few weeks, but i've just now noticed how crazy this twilight world is. i don't want to say i'm obsessed, but i'm heading to that point. now i've finished reading all of the books though, so i won't be quite as "OH-MY-GAAAAAHSH!" anymore, but i still love those characters with all my heart and i will be waiting for Midnight Sun to hit the shelves(: if only something like these books would become real. then my life would truly be something to blog about. until then, we'll have to be satisfied with the boring life that i call my own right now. my life full of homework, let downs, and anticipation for the grand old holidays(:

i really cannot wait for christmas. everyone just seems so happy and joyous around the last few weeks of december. and i can't blame them, actually i'm one of "them". i LOVE the holidays. i wish it would snow, just once, in milpitas. and then my life would be complete. yes, i know. "just once?" you're asking... and my answer is as follows: "yes, just once. my skin does not react very attractively in the cold. i turn orange and purple and my friends like to antagonize me by calling me an oompa loompa and asking me to sing and dance. so just once, would be nice, thanks." and now we're done with that conversation. but, really. i can't wait until winter break. i really feel like i need a break. yes, we had a few days off for thanksgiving, but i need a few weeks of break from this nonsense schoolwork. my grades are slipping and i feel tired all the time. i'm super stressed, quite often, and i want to scream at someone, but it isn't very polite, so i won't. anyways, my wishlist this year consists of:
-v-necks
-crew neck sweaters
-a nice, polite, and cute distraction, if you know what i mean(:
-a smile!
*i was just joking about that third one, but i wouldn't mind if one of them came knocking on my door!

well, time to go finish my tedious homework. only 11 more school days until winter break!