why so serious?

yeah, i watched dark knight... or at least part of dark knight again. today was quite fun. actually today was one of the best days of this year. during the day it didn't seem so WOWtastic, but now that i'm looking back on it, i kind of loved it. everyone's all cheery and nice to each other and everyone's anxious to get out of class because we have the next two weeks off. and the big boxes and small bags of goodies making everyone happy and loving. if only every day and every minute was as great as today.

but, of course, as soon as i get to SJ everything changes. gosh darnit, i hate it here. i've asked numerous times if i could stop coming here, and it isn't happening. i even ask nicely, but all she ever freaking says is: "that's not gonna happen" with her stupid little sarcastic voice. do you have a better answer for me, please? you don't like me, i don't like you, we don't respect each other and nothing is ever going to change that so let's not force it upon ourselves, shall we? let's not make everyone suffer. all we ever do is fight, and who enjoys that? maybe you do, cause it sure seems like it. you accuse me of instigating these numerous, pointless fights, but i HATE these stupid fights. and more than half the time their about something stupid like forgetting to make a copy of a report card, forgetting to remind my sister to do something, not closing the door all the way. you don't need to go all crazy-eyed and bad-mouthed on me. i get it. my bad. i APOLOGIZE profusely. gosh, am i ever so glad that i only have to stay here til christmas morning. that's the one thing i do not like about this whole two week vacation thing: the week i'm over here, i have absolutely nothing to do and i just get into fights with that person who calls me her daughter. eugh. not at all. i will never willingly call her my mother unless it is a life or death situation. and i'm not exaggerating. she is not what i define as a mother. she never has been, she is not, and she never will be.

gosh, i really hope i don't turn out to be like her when i grow up.