CAMP EVERYTOWN

(= I'm leaving tomorrow. It doesn't really feel like I am, but once I physically get on the bus I think it will. If it doesn't feel like I'm leaving then... well, then I must be stupid. Which I am anyways, but that will just confirm it. Haha.

Well, today was very eventful. Kind of. Trojan Olympics drawings were today. I got chosen! I'm really excited. But kind of scared and nervous. Actually really scared and nervous. But a good kind of scared and nervous. I'm a little saddened that people like Vy, Ashley, Caroline, and a bunch of other really spirited people didn't get drawn, but we always need a crazy cheering area! That's where I was last year, and just to warn you: it's uber hot there so drink lots of wataaaaaaaa... Wow. I'm cool.

After school I went to TRMS's girls soccer practice today. Ha, my sister thinks she's so cool. She's not. But Guadalupe thinks that my sister knows more about being cool than I do. "I beg to differ" as she would say. It was good bonding time with Guadalupe and I. LOL! Her and her incorrect grammar. Silly goose!

Shoot. Cellular bill came in today. We have unlimited text messaging, but I had over 2,500 last month... I believe I'm going to be in trouble. Hopefully my report card makes up for it.

Class: Final Exam/Final Grade
Chemistry: C/A-
AP History: C/B
Algebra 2: A/B+
Spanish 2: A-/A
Leadership: A/A
English: B-/B+

Geeze, 2,500. Must be some kind of record. Definitely is for me... Shoot. I'm dead.

"stare & think about you"

Ha, that's a funny joke! Nice try, buddy.

Anyhow, camp everytown in two days. I'm stoked(=

More mail for me today; this time from New York University and University of Miami. Same thing as all the others. Website, username, password, get free stuff. Haha, bribes.

Done with my homework by 9:00PM for once. It's pretty cool. I should do this more often. I even studied for my tests tomorrow! Now i'm off to finish up packing for camp. Maybe I'll even curl my hair. Hey, why not. I have the time...

Oh yeah! Trojan Olympic drawings tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous. I don't know why, it's not like I'm doing anything. Locations have changed from the announcements this morning. Now it's like this-
Freshman: Theater
Sophomores: Theater
Juniors: Small Gym
Seniors: J17
They are all still at lunch though. See all you Sophomores at the theater! Goodnight!

i realize

that I have already blogged today, but this is something truly blog-worthy(=



So, I return to my beloved Milpitas, and when I enter my room I find a stack of mail addressed to me. I never ever get mail, so I'm thinking, what is this nonsense!? I read the envelopes and I realize... colleges! This is super exciting and equally scary. Colleges? Sending me mail? This means that I'm growing up and getting ready to leave. I don't want to. But I must admit, this gave me an adrenaline rush. Haha. Anyhow, most of them are kind of eh... but the college that has been my dream since I was 7 sent me something. When I saw the Santa Clara University envelope addressed to me... I literally started jumping up and down. I haven't really been thinking about SCU to go to college. It's super expensive and pretty impractical, what with the economy and the fact that my family's pretty tight on money nowadays, so SCU hasn't really been my number one college for some time now. I mean, it will always be my dream school, but I'm trying to be realistic here. This letter, though, it gave me hope.

I know that I'm definitely not the only high school student to receive the same exact letter, only with their own name on it, but it's renewed my dream. A letter to me from the Dean of Undergraduate Admission saying that I'm a talented high school student and that she wants me to find out what part I like about SCU the best really impacted me more than I thought it would. I've already gone online and entered in my user name and password and whatnot. I'm excited, if you can't already tell.

Aside from Santa Clara University, I received letters from Mills College, Montana State University, University of the Pacific, University of Puget Sound, and the National Student Leadership Conference.

But more on that tomorrow. I've been so distracted by this that I haven't been studying. In order for me to get into any college, I need good grades. Bye!

PS: I'm taking my driver's permit test on March 10 at 3:00PM(=

school tomorrow

I want today to last forever. Well, it can start lasting forever after four o'clock.
I come home to my loving Milpitas at that time(=

I'm excited. I miss stinky ol' M-town. Ha, but really. I can't stand San Jose. I don't know anyone over here and I feel like an old fart not going out and doing anything.

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If you can't already tell, I am a bit excited about Camp Everytown coming up on Wednesday. It doesn't feel like I'm leaving this week. It feels like I just got the paperwork on it a month ago. Anyways, thanks to anyone who bought See's Candy from me. Because of you I didn't have to pay a dime to go. It'll be like an extended sleepover with my best friend, two girls I miss dearly, and some new people. I cannot wait. So maybe today shouldn't last forever. But I'd like to skip tomorrow and Tuesday, please? Ha, yeah right.

You know, my mom won't let me miss school for anything unless I'm like on my death bed. I haven't missed a day of school since seventh grade I think. I really want to just play hookie for a day, but I know that's bad, so I won't. Even if I said that I would, I'd probably be too chicken to follow through with it.

Anyhow, back to the dreariness of homework. I'm almost done. I just need to study for Chapters 25 and 26 for AP History, finish my worksheet and study Chapter 7 for Algebra 2, study Chapter 5, Grammar 1 for Spanish 2, start my mini quote explications for Chapters 1-5 of AQWF, and if I have time, start my Stoichiometry cheat sheet for Chemistry. Mostly studying. Why didn't we just have all of these tests before break so we didn't have to worry all week? Gosh, sometimes I think teachers need to think a little more.

break's over

i want more time off. i just got used to waking up late and not having to actually do anything. ugh. and i need more time to study. i have a feeling i'm not going to do well on my tests this week.

camp everytown starting after school on wednesday! i'm so excited. i know people call it camp-cry-a-lot or whatever, but i'm glad i get to experience it. i have a feeling i'm going to create some strong bonds there. i still need to pack though.

i have a feeling the rain is coming back. in san jose it's really gloomy right now. and the wind is picking up. and my puppy's going crazy so i'm going to go take him for a walk before the rain starts.

hope your weekend is going wonderfully(=


EDIT: the rain is now pouring. and the wind is freaking me out. my window won't stop shaking )=

hot and cold

is what you are. boy, oh boy, am i confused. don't talk to me for what? a week, a week and a half? and then BAM! you speak and let me know that you like me again? what is this? if it's just a quick thing because no one else is into you at the moment, screw it. i'm not going to be your back up. i deserve more than that, so get yourself together and then let me know what you're thinking or feeling or not thinking or feeling. i really don't care what it is that you're going to tell me, as long as it's the truth. because i really can't take being so confused anymore. if you just need a friend, then i'll be that. if you need more, we can talk about that. i just need to know what you really want/need. i need you to tell me, not text me. i need you to call me or talk to me in person about it. but, i'm not going to just keep texting. i know we talk in person, but not about all of this. i don't even know if what your saying is you saying it. i hope it is, because i'm a naive idiot if not. but i'd rather know now than later down the line when i really fall for you. because i can feel that fall coming. and it's already making me feel like a bunch of crap.

i'm imperfect. i over think everything, i'm too trusting, i talk too much, i am scared to death of you, i can't stand this thing we're doing-whatever it is.
i don't know what you would see in me. maybe you are just screwing with my head. wouldn't be the first time, would it...



PS: sorry about this seemingly emo post. don't worry, i'm not. i'm just confused as heck!

i feel like

food. i'm quite hungry at the moment.

but i also feel like i've done absolutely nothing productive over break. it's over halfway through and i feel like i've been doing homework forever, yet i've finished nothing. i still have an AP history chapter outline, two AP history chapter study guides; algebra 2 chapter 7 study guide; read chapters 1-5 of All Quiet on the Western Front, do mini-quote explications for each chapter of AQOTWF, find and define vocabulary words in AQOTWF, do AQOTWF scavenger hunt; study spanish 2 chapter 5-gramatica 2.

but yesterday i started and finished two books. yes i'm a nerd, sue me. but i haven't read anything other than school-required books in a long time. i forgot how much i missed it. i really do love to read. it takes you out of your own life and into someone else's. sometimes you need that. i bought four books at barnes and noble, which i apologize for, because i really love borders at mccarthy ranch. but i had two gift cards to B&N and i thought that i should use them. but, i probably should have just read these books in the store seeing as how now i have two books that costed a total of $13.98 and i just needed them for one day. anyways, it was worth it; they were great. i recommend that you read them.
Can't Get There From Here by Todd Strasser
This one's kind of dreary, but the ending's somewhat happy. It gives you a look into the lives of some homeless kids, essentially. The trials and tribulations they go through, their day-to-day life. It almost seems as if the author had been in that position. At parts it's really gut wrenching, so if you really don't want to be sad, don't read it. I like this author. Even though it's the first book that I've read of his, a couple other titles of books that he's written are Give a Boy a Gun and How I Changed My Life.
Sweethearts by Sara Zarr
This is the best book I've read in a long time. It's about a girl, Jennifer, and her best and only friend, Cameron. They go through a traumatic situation together in elementary school and soon after, Cameron disappears. After eight years, he is back in Jennifer's life. This brings memories, good and bad, flooding back into Jennifer's mind. She's changed since Cameron left; she's popular, not fat anymore, and even has a boyfriend. Will she change back to the old Jennifer? You should read it to find out(=
i have two more books that i bought, but i promise not to read them until my homework is finished.

last night i went to Oakridge with my sister. i bought a cute little dress, necklace, and bag for me and i bought my sister a pair of jeans and a bag. oh and some cookies. ha, well, now i'm pretty much broke which sucks. but that's okay because now i have no excuse not to do my homework. except reading, which i promise i won't do until i'm done.

off to get some breakfast; it's the most important meal of the day you know...

february break

begins tomorrow. i have no plans except to do my homework. my homework of which i have too much. ugh, what's the point of a break from school if you are burdened with two tons of homework to do? i'd almost rather stay in school all week. almost, being the key word.
i have two AP history chapter outlines, two AP history chapter study guides; algebra 2 chapter 7 study guide; read chapters 1-5 of All Quiet on the Western Front, do mini-quote explications for each chapter of AQOTWF, find and define vocabulary words in AQOTWF, do AQOTWF scavenger hunt; spanish 2 workbook page 54, study spanish 2 chapter 5-gramatica 2.
again, i ask: what is the point of a break from school if it isn't truly a break from school?


EDIT: look what i found! hahaha. brian catches some funny faces. this was from the cultural heritage assembly on friday. gabe bondoc is a truly amazing singer. it's one thing to watch him sing on youtube, but live he's even better. (even if i was behind the speaker staring at his back, LOL!) i hope he releases an album soon.

valentines day

or as it is named for me, singles awareness day. naw, just kidding. i heard someone say that yesterday and i thought it was quite hilarious. anyhow, i'm sick, my throat hurts, and i now know that i may be the least interesting person ever. exciting stuff, huh? (=

i'm sleepy. goodnight!
and happy valentines/singles awareness day!

four tests

tomorrow. i'm already sick of studying.

at least tomorrow's friday(:

soccer game tomorrow? check.
visit ms. doherty because it's her birthday and my sister made the team? check.
basketball quad game tomorrow? check.
talent show tomorrow? check.

well, it's going to be quite a busy day. and if anyone hasn't picked up their sadies pictures yet, please do tomorrow. i'm getting tired of missing my lunches. thanks!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Almost...

to two friends who have been there with me since almost the beginning.

Chris and Trevor Dimich:

Happy (early) 16th Birthday! Well, I probably should say birthdays, but whatever; you know what I mean. Anyways, I know over the past few years we haven't talked or hung out as much as people who have known each other since diapers should, but I just want to let you know that I love you guys. You mean so much to me, whether I show it or not. You don't know how proud and grateful I am to have you two in my life. (Or how happy I am that I share my whiteness in a school full of unwhiteness with you guys, haha.) I will always be right here for you two. We've been together starting with crazy days in preschool, to dinners at Casa Azteca, Outback, and Chilis, and now to birthday number sixteen, and for as many more birthdays as there are in store for us, I'll always be here for you boys. I LOVE YOU! Happy (almost) 16th Birthday! Birthdays, whatever(:

-Courtney

PS: We've got to go to dinner soon! Strangely, I miss almost squirting some gross thing out of my nose from laughing at you two crazies(: