no worries

As I said yesterday, that conversation was a J-O-K-E. Don't trip. Things haven't really changed since yesterday except for the fact that I'm more confused.

Thank goodness tomorrow's Friday. Three day weekend, yippee! Only 28 more school days until summer(=

Speaking of it not being summer, it's supposed to rain four out of the next five days. Thanks Global Warming; apparently, you aren't that warm.

tortellini

That's what I had for dinner. It's easy to make and quite delicious.

Anyhow, today wasn't very interesting. STAR testing is over. Boo! It sounds strange, I know, but those tests really don't count for anything and the schedule was pretty chill. So, even with all the complaining I did about it, I'm going to miss the STAR testing; rather, the STAR schedule.

I'm very very very very very very confused. Which isn't that unusual for me, but today I am unusually puzzled. What the flux is going on? I can't read your freaking brain, so could you please just explain!? Or not, since that's obviously how this is going to go down.

Most interesting conversation today ended as such...
1. "So when am I meeting your mom?"
2. "Huh?! Why would you need to meet my mom?"
1. "She'll like me. You know, for dinner."
2. "Yeah, okay."
What is this nonsense?! Again, I'm quite on the confused side. Oh well, it was pretty funny.

PS: Today I was told that I smile too much )=

swine flu

Geeze, how much do we love worrying about stuff like this? People are beginning to go a little crazy. I'm trying to keep my head on straight, not worry about it too much. Hopefully it just dies, this whole virus thing. I hope things are just being blown out of proportion and the swine flu leaves us forever!

Only one more day of STAR testing. This is the day I'm most scared for. Chemistry-dun dun dun dun! Not that I'm bad in Chemistry, it's actually one of the few classes I enjoy; it's just that there are so many concepts and equations to remember, I'm afraid they'll be super hard. Oh well, I can only try my best. Today's test was super easy though. My class (of seven, haha) finished in like thirty or forty minutes. We just hung out in the library and talked to Ms. Harris, or should I say, Mrs. Butcher, about Spring Break and her wedding for a while. Then we went to J17 and talked about leadership stuff. Fun, I wish the rest of the school year was this chill.

We're getting down to the wire. Less than thirty more school days until summer. It's kind of crazy. It doesn't even feel like it should be this close to being over. Shoot, am I going to miss class of 2009 next year. I won't start getting all sad until their graduation comes closer though, don't trip chocolate chip!(=

Sharks lost last night. Season over. Boo. Now I'll be watching the San Francisco Giants. I hope we have some shot at playoffs this year. We've been kind of sucking for a while now.

My blogs are getting long and meaningless. Oh well.

My most interesting conversation of the day ended as such...
G: "What's the difference between chance and risk? ..."
C: "Haha, what?"
G: "Just try it, it works like a charm."
C: "Hahaha! No, thanks."
That's not all of it, I'm missing some bits and pieces but I don't want to get the wording wrong. But I still don't get it...

random thought

Well, maybe it isn't so random, but we'll just say it is. Why do we feel the need to grow up so darn quickly?

Lately I've been blown away by the things going on around me. It's like a freaking teen drama television series. Sex. Drugs. Alcohol. What the flux? I'm proud to say that I have not become a character in this show, I'm still merely a viewer. Thank goodness. I'm pretty confident, too, that I will not become a part of this crazy world of people who think they need to act stupid to be cool. Well, maybe stupid is a little harsh. These people may not be stupid, but their actions are. I don't know if you realized, but we're still in high school people. Let's just take a step back and think. Or has all that alcohol and drugs killed too many brain cells?

I'm only 16, and I'd like to keep my innocence, thank you very much. I have too much self respect to give myself up, drink my sorrows away, or be conned into thinking that drugs are cool. It sucks that we now live in a world where you are thought to be "chicken" if you don't do any of this, but it's our own faults. So many people who are doing these things are the ones complaining; um, hello, do you not realize that by participating in this crap, that you're contributing to the problem?

Okay, so I'm complaining too, and I get that I may sound a little whiny. But again, I'm only SIXTEEN and I'm completely innocent. So I think I have a little bit of a right to be complaining.

Maybe I'm complaining so much because people aren't truthful about all of this. Instead of acting like your so dang innocent, complaining with me, being all "I know, right?" about it all, just tell the truth. You made a mistake and now you have to live with it... happily ever after or not.

I'm sorry if this offends anyone, but the purpose of my blog is to vent and write about what's going on in my life. No one is forcing you to read this, so if you don't like it, don't read it. Simple.

goodbye

Spring Break. It was nice while it lasted.

I loved loved loved Hawaii. There's nothing like it in the world.

less than 24 hours

Right now, I'm like pee-in-your-pants excited. I can't wait. Hawaii! Hawaii! Hawaii! Hawaii! I will no longer be albino white. Just kidding, I'm not albino white. Just really white. When I come back I'll be nice and tan. Or red. But I'm hoping it'll be tan.

Junior Prom was last night. It was, um, interesting. I can't honestly say that I had fun the whole time, or even most of the time. But there were a few moments where I was genuinely enjoying myself-and that's good enough for me. Plus, I wasn't even there to have fun, I was working at coat check. Which was pretty hectic. People kept coming back and forth and getting yelled at for it, even though they were told it was okay. I don't know. Some of the chaperones/administrators didn't know what they were talking about. Whatevs. Everyone looked cute. Minus me(=

Anyhow, when it comes to homework for this week, my teachers were pretty nice, for the most part. Well, not really. I just finished most of my work in class. I just have a Spanish worksheet and History outline and study guide. So I have decided to take no work on my vacation. Yipee! My plane leaves at 9AM out of San Francisco tomorrow morning, and we will land at around 11AM (Hawaii time). Hawaii(: Woooooooooo! I'm going to miss everyone, though. Yang and I will call, text, etc, though. No need to fear! Forreal though, I hope everyone has a good Spring Break.

how is it

that teachers have absolutely no hearts? It's freaking two days before Spring Break and I have so much homework. And tomorrow, for my AP classes, I have tests. Happy spring break... not. Ugh ugh ugh. I haven't even started packing... oh well, I'll still have a great time with my bestfriend/yin. I'm so excited.

Oh, today I caught up with my friend Joann. I miss my Joannin! I'm glad we got to talk, even if just for a little bit. She still thinks I'm mean, but at least I didn't hit her today... that's a first(=

Anyhow, Junior Prom is tomorrow night and my date is everyone's coat. Haha, yes, as I said yesterday, I'm working coat check. Yay me! And if my hair stays like it did yesterday when I was testing it, Bettina's right... my sexy hair will get all those junior boys to wish they had asked me. HAHA! Just kidding. I'm excited to see everyone looking so cute tomorrow. I can't wait.

3 days til Hawaii!

junior prom

I get to work at it. Yay! Haha, and I'm only being half sarcastic. I'm working coat check for a little while but then I get to go have fun, until 11:30. Hey, I'm not complaining. I'm pretty excited. I didn't realize I didn't have to work the whole time, so the dress I'm wearing isn't formal. It's pretty casual actually. Oh well, it's not like they'll tell me to leave, I mean I'm the one putting all the coats in bags. Haha. I'm excited about my hair. I just got done testing it out to see if it'll work. I think it will. I hope it will. I'm actually trying to look good. Which is weird, seeing as how it isn't even my prom. Oh well, dress to impress, right?

Oh yeah, you're a jerk, you know! But, I don't care anymore(=

i don't want to live with you

I told her again today. This time she just walked out of the room. Dang, way to be mature, don't you think? All sparked from yet another fight. Seems to be a daily thing. Now either I stop living with you now, or I stop later. Either way, it's going to happen. We don't like each other... at all. I don't know when that's going to get through your head. Or maybe it has, you just don't want to face it. Or you enjoy fighting. Well, let me tell you something, I don't. I hate fighting with you. I hate fighting period. I don't want to become you, so get someone else to fight with. Because I'm scared I am becoming you. And I hate myself for it. I'm being a b-word to people who definitely don't deserve it. I resent you so much for beginning to turn me into the thing I hate most in life. But I'm stopping it now. No more. I need to get out of this darn house.

Other than that, I'm happy(=
I'm staying positive. At least, I'm trying...

what the flux?

The way things have been going lately, I've just been wanting to give up. Not go shoot myself or anything, but I haven't really been trying too hard lately. My grades are slipping, I'm giving way too much attitude to people who don't deserve it, and the things that I have seemed to care about, really don't need that much caring.

That's all going to change today. Today I had somewhat of an epiphany (big word, I know(= ). Today I found out that I was elected as my class' secretary. I was so freaking joyful, jumping around and what not; but soon after I was asking myself, why the heck do I deserve this? Why did people vote for me? Now, don't get me wrong I definitely wanted and still want to be my class' secretary, and I'll definitely put my all into leading my class, but lately I don't feel that I've shown my class exactly what I can do to help 2011 be the very best class we can be. Cheesy, I know, but it works.

I've cared too much about a few things that shouldn't be worrying me. Biggest issue: boys. I'm only 16, why am I trying to rush things so much. I don't need a boyfriend or any other guy to make me happy. I'm fine alone and with my friends, so I need to just be independent. This guy thinks he has too much of a hold on me, and I let the butthole think it. But again, that's all going to change.

I vow that I will contribute more, speak up more, listen more, do better in my classes, ignore, well maybe not ignore, but not spend so much time worrying about the opposite sex, and be as cheery as possible all the time (with no attitude to people who don't deserve it.) I've been a brat lately, and I'm sorry. Things have been going on at home, but that is absolutely no excuse. I cannot let my family life get the best of me. And I will not let it get to me any longer. I'm strong, and now I'm going to show that I am. My life is becoming more balanced as we speak. This blogging stuff really helps. I think I'm going to return to doing this more often.

The end.

PS: Today someone rapped about me! It was pretty cool, only he didn't finish. Okay, now I'm done.

PPS: Wait, no I'm not. Congratulations to my fellow class of 2011 officers of the 2009-2010 school year. Madame President, Mariel, Madame Vice President, Crisann, and Mr. Treasurer, Kevin, I can't wait to work with you this next year; I know we'll do a great job!

Okay, now I really am done(=

yesterday

was the longest day of my life.

Can't you just agree and be done with it?