The way things have been going lately, I've just been wanting to give up. Not go shoot myself or anything, but I haven't really been trying too hard lately. My grades are slipping, I'm giving way too much attitude to people who don't deserve it, and the things that I have seemed to care about, really don't need that much caring.
That's all going to change today. Today I had somewhat of an epiphany (big word, I know(= ). Today I found out that I was elected as my class' secretary. I was so freaking joyful, jumping around and what not; but soon after I was asking myself, why the heck do I deserve this? Why did people vote for me? Now, don't get me wrong I definitely wanted and still want to be my class' secretary, and I'll definitely put my all into leading my class, but lately I don't feel that I've shown my class exactly what I can do to help 2011 be the very best class we can be. Cheesy, I know, but it works.
I've cared too much about a few things that shouldn't be worrying me. Biggest issue: boys. I'm only 16, why am I trying to rush things so much. I don't need a boyfriend or any other guy to make me happy. I'm fine alone and with my friends, so I need to just be independent. This guy thinks he has too much of a hold on me, and I let the butthole think it. But again, that's all going to change.
I vow that I will contribute more, speak up more, listen more, do better in my classes, ignore, well maybe not ignore, but not spend so much time worrying about the opposite sex, and be as cheery as possible all the time (with no attitude to people who don't deserve it.) I've been a brat lately, and I'm sorry. Things have been going on at home, but that is absolutely no excuse. I cannot let my family life get the best of me. And I will not let it get to me any longer. I'm strong, and now I'm going to show that I am. My life is becoming more balanced as we speak. This blogging stuff really helps. I think I'm going to return to doing this more often.
The end.
PS: Today someone rapped about me! It was pretty cool, only he didn't finish. Okay, now I'm done.
PPS: Wait, no I'm not. Congratulations to my fellow class of 2011 officers of the 2009-2010 school year. Madame President, Mariel, Madame Vice President, Crisann, and Mr. Treasurer, Kevin, I can't wait to work with you this next year; I know we'll do a great job!
Okay, now I really am done(=
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