emancipation

...possibly. i can't wait until i'm sixteen.

christmas eve

and it doesn't even feel like it. i'm usually home with my family and getting ready to prepare for a big ham dinner and play games and whatnot. but because i'm over here in san jose i'm home alone with my sister missing milpitas so much. oh well, less than tweny four hours and i'll be back.

last night was good though. i finally got my sister something. i know, kind of last minute, but i really had no clue what to get her. i finally just ended up with something really simple, but i think it will be ok. her style is really simple. oh, and i found this super cute shirt on sale for twelve dollars! and some exciting, but not so exciting stuff happened over the telephone. i'm just getting more and more confused, but at this point, i kind of like it(:

merry christmas eve!

why so serious?

yeah, i watched dark knight... or at least part of dark knight again. today was quite fun. actually today was one of the best days of this year. during the day it didn't seem so WOWtastic, but now that i'm looking back on it, i kind of loved it. everyone's all cheery and nice to each other and everyone's anxious to get out of class because we have the next two weeks off. and the big boxes and small bags of goodies making everyone happy and loving. if only every day and every minute was as great as today.

but, of course, as soon as i get to SJ everything changes. gosh darnit, i hate it here. i've asked numerous times if i could stop coming here, and it isn't happening. i even ask nicely, but all she ever freaking says is: "that's not gonna happen" with her stupid little sarcastic voice. do you have a better answer for me, please? you don't like me, i don't like you, we don't respect each other and nothing is ever going to change that so let's not force it upon ourselves, shall we? let's not make everyone suffer. all we ever do is fight, and who enjoys that? maybe you do, cause it sure seems like it. you accuse me of instigating these numerous, pointless fights, but i HATE these stupid fights. and more than half the time their about something stupid like forgetting to make a copy of a report card, forgetting to remind my sister to do something, not closing the door all the way. you don't need to go all crazy-eyed and bad-mouthed on me. i get it. my bad. i APOLOGIZE profusely. gosh, am i ever so glad that i only have to stay here til christmas morning. that's the one thing i do not like about this whole two week vacation thing: the week i'm over here, i have absolutely nothing to do and i just get into fights with that person who calls me her daughter. eugh. not at all. i will never willingly call her my mother unless it is a life or death situation. and i'm not exaggerating. she is not what i define as a mother. she never has been, she is not, and she never will be.

gosh, i really hope i don't turn out to be like her when i grow up.

i dislike

quote explications greatly.

i also dislike the fact that teachers like to give us so much to do right before break.

but, i do like that we only have TWO MORE DAYS!!!
i'm so excited, you don't understand. i'm sure by the time break's even halfway over, i'll be wanting to return to school. but i am pretty sure i need this break. i feel as if i've been in a prison cell forever waiting to escape, and now's my chance. only two days. can you feel the anticipation? right now it's depriving me of sleep, of any real thoughts, of anything. good thing tomorrow night will give me a distraction.

are you going to movie night? i sure am. it's muy divertido!(:

chili's baby back ribs

well, MHS class of 2011's second chili's fundraiser of the year was tonight and based on what i saw, i'm not expecting as good of numbers as last time. ):

on the not-so-brighter side, today was very dreary. at least the weather was. up until 4th period it was raining off and on and that was pretty much it for the wetness, but it was cold throughout the entire day, which wasn't too bad. tomorrow there's a chance of snow! i'm so excited even though the chance is a very slight one.

i'm not expecting tomorrow to be so great... i have a test in chemistry and math. math is pretty much my least favorite class. i have an alright grade, but i know i can do better. i'm determined to do well on this test so i'm going to go study right now.

one more thing: BOYS ARE THE MOST CONFUSING GROUP OF PEOPLE ON EARTH. but i love them(:

by the way: only 4 more school days until winter break!

it's beginning to feel a lot like winter

and i'm kind of liking it. i'm still not used to it, but i'm getting there. the one thing i don't like about the cold though, is that i turn an ugly, oompa loompa-ish orange color. other than that though, it's fun finding new clothes and sweaters and cardigans to wear.

other than the new weather, nothing else is really news-worthy. oh, well one thing: only 8 more school days until break! that's the one thing i keep telling myself to get through the week.

anyways, happy tuesday!

twilight mania

yes, i have hopped on the bandwagon. i've actually been on the bandwagon for a few weeks, but i've just now noticed how crazy this twilight world is. i don't want to say i'm obsessed, but i'm heading to that point. now i've finished reading all of the books though, so i won't be quite as "OH-MY-GAAAAAHSH!" anymore, but i still love those characters with all my heart and i will be waiting for Midnight Sun to hit the shelves(: if only something like these books would become real. then my life would truly be something to blog about. until then, we'll have to be satisfied with the boring life that i call my own right now. my life full of homework, let downs, and anticipation for the grand old holidays(:

i really cannot wait for christmas. everyone just seems so happy and joyous around the last few weeks of december. and i can't blame them, actually i'm one of "them". i LOVE the holidays. i wish it would snow, just once, in milpitas. and then my life would be complete. yes, i know. "just once?" you're asking... and my answer is as follows: "yes, just once. my skin does not react very attractively in the cold. i turn orange and purple and my friends like to antagonize me by calling me an oompa loompa and asking me to sing and dance. so just once, would be nice, thanks." and now we're done with that conversation. but, really. i can't wait until winter break. i really feel like i need a break. yes, we had a few days off for thanksgiving, but i need a few weeks of break from this nonsense schoolwork. my grades are slipping and i feel tired all the time. i'm super stressed, quite often, and i want to scream at someone, but it isn't very polite, so i won't. anyways, my wishlist this year consists of:
-v-necks
-crew neck sweaters
-a nice, polite, and cute distraction, if you know what i mean(:
-a smile!
*i was just joking about that third one, but i wouldn't mind if one of them came knocking on my door!

well, time to go finish my tedious homework. only 11 more school days until winter break!

happy thanksgiving

and yes, i do know it was two days ago. i've been with "family" for the past few days, so i'm just getting around to do the blog thing now. but also, i didn't know exactly what to say. i mean, yes i'm thankful, but thankful for what exactly? i could just go over all the regular things: food, shelter, family, etc. but there's more to it this year. i'm growing up and i think i need to think these things through a little more. so, here is my list of thankfulness:

1. my mother. she is my rock, and though sometimes i get more pissed off with her than i should, i love here with all my heart and i'm glad she is my mom.
2. my sister. lately, she's turned into one of my best friends. it's a little strange, seeing as how just a few years ago we couldn't get along for the life of us. but i love her, and in a few years i may not be living with her anymore, and i'll sure miss her and her silly little sayings.
3. my best friend, meera narayanan. i don't know what the heck i would do without her. i'm not just saying that. she saved me from a dreadful fate, haha. she knows what i'm talking about(:
4. my school. yes, i realize that i do complain about that darn place quite often, but i know that i am becoming a better person every day because of what i learn, both inside and outside the classroom. at MHS i'm witnessing things every day that change me for the better.
5. the people i've met and have gotten closer to for the past two years. many of them have changed me, some for the better, some for the not-so-better, but i've learned from them. some people of note are: vy phung, guadalupe dominguez, cecilia nguyen, michelle nguyen, tammy nguyen, bryan castaneres, ashley nguyen, and victoria van. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

and of course, i thank YOU. for reading my hideous blog, thanks for caring(:

not much to tell...

but i figured i should let anyone who maybe be reading my blog about my unimportant, unexciting life, that something exciting actually did happen today. i finished twilight. it could be the single best book i have ever read. which is saying a lot. yes, i do read a lot, and yes i am a nerd. get over it. anyways, if you haven't read it, i want you to turn off your computer, head over to the nearest library, bookstore, or friend with twilight and start reading. don't worry, it won't take that long. i finished mine in two days. and i thought the same thing you're thinking: it's just a trend, i don't want to hop onto the bandwagon. well, let me tell you this: i was wrong then, and you are wrong now. and i would tell you what happens, but you'll have to just go find out yourself(:

happy reading!
-Courtney

holy moly!

it's already sunday. good thing is, we have tuesday off. i wish we had tomorrow, too. it's all good, though. sky high tomorrow, i think... who else is going? some (or all? i don't remember) of the money spent there with a certain flyer gives interact money to send to people in africa who needs it. sky high's super fun and it's for a good cause, so i really want to go. we'll see.

anyhow, on friday i went to the football game, and again, we killed. though not that many people went, it was hella fun. hahaha! head massages and whatnot. and now we are officially league champs. this coming friday is senior night, last game of the season, so i'm definitely going. and then we're off to CCS. i'm so excited. i think we have a really good shot at getting the title, which would be awesome. twice in three years. and something you might not have known: this is the first time MHS has been named football league champs since 1998. did you know that? i just found out friday(:

it was a little awkward and short-lived, but i'm glad i had a talk with them. even though it was just the same stuff as usual, they surprised me. and though someone interrupted... it's all good.

well, i should probably start my homework. hope your weekend was/is good!

it's been a while

but now i have time to blog about my life that is so uninteresting. well, lately it hasn't been so uninteresting. on the contrary, it's been quite exciting. it's been two weeks since our crazy homecoming week began, so let's start there.

class of 2011 won the spirit competition, our chili's fundraiser on october 13 was mighty successful, volleyball won on wednesday which was also a pack-the-house night, movie night was super fun, and friday was the homecoming game itself.

but not only was it the homecoming game, it was also the day of the rally, carnival, and alumni tailgate. our skit went alright during the rally; it could have been worse. i don't know how we did at the carnival, seeing as how i had to set up for the tailgate and work the tailgate that wasn't as successful as we'd hoped. but i must say the ribs were super tasty thanks to Mr. Mendizabal and the rest of the KIWANIS club. the tailgate was stressful and i was pissed off and overtired and upset with the world, but now looking back i'm glad i did it. i was kind of like the head of our committee, and i was the youngest member of it! even though we didn't make the money we would have liked to, it's a pretty good accomplishment for me. and, as expected, our varsity smashed on mountain view; did you even have to ask?

this last week was pretty much a recovery week for everyone, it was pretty mellow... and i'm glad. but now we're all supposed to be fully recovered and ready to dive back into everything. anyways, halloween is friday! are you ready? i know that cecilia, meera, and i are(:

coming up:
10/29-c/o 2011 fundraiser
10/31-Halloween
11/4-Election Day
11/5-sister's 12th birthday
11/5-no school
11/11-no school
11/17-c/o 2011 applebee's fundraiser
11/27-Thanksgiving Day
11/27-no school
11/28-Black Friday
11/28-no school

oh, and by the way HSM3 was the cutest damn movie i've watched in a while. um, can i have this dance? freaking adorable.

life is speeding before my very eyes

and i feel like i'm standing still. they days feel long, but the weeks feel short, if that makes any sense. i've said it before, but i'll say it again: i feel like i'm not doing anything to make a difference while i'm here. i mean, yes i'm involved in a bunch of activities at school and whatnot, but... it doesn't feel like it means anything. i know i sound pathetic and like a big whiner but i can't help how i feel. i want to DO SOMETHING. i don't know what. i want to do something that's dangerous, that will make me feel empowered, that will change something in my life that will make me feel like i'm not just taking up other people's air and space. i want to be someone. i want to mean something. i sound like a spoiled brat who's as selfish as can be. and maybe right now i am being selfish, i don't know. i just don't want my life to go by and me be unnoticed. after i'm gone, i want people to miss me. i want people to celebrate my life. i want people to want me here.

i don't know, maybe i am just a big, spoiled, selfish brat.

calendar

for the next few weeks:

October 1: junior juice city fundraiser
October 1: back to school night
October 6-10: class t-shirt sales
October 6-15: class wristband competition
October 13-17: homecoming week
October 13: hawaiian dress-up day
October 13: sophomore chili's fundraiser (5-8)
October 14: nerd dress-up day
October 15: stoplight dress-up day
October 15: pack-the-house volleyball
October 16: purple dress-up day
October 16: pack-the-house movie night (remember the titans)
October 17: blue and gold dress-up day
October 17: rally
October 17: carnival
October 17: alumni dinner
October 17: homecoming pack-the-house football game
October 18: homecoming dance (?)
October 29: sophomore q-cup fundraiser

geeze, it's busy busy busy! hopefully everything goes according to plan(:

viva la trojan!

yes, that's right. we won... again. not to jynx us or anything, but our team (varsity, anyways) is pretty darn good this year. the score last night was something like 50-7. and the other team scored the first touchdown in the first quarter so i sat down and said "this is not going to be good." but look, i was proved wrong, and for once, i like it!(:

but, last night some unneccessary drama went down. it wasn't a fight or anything; it was unneccessary and annoying, though. i regret to have to say that i was involved, but i am trying to be the bigger person, so we'll see how things play out.

anyways, on a happier note... when i woke up this morning i went downstairs and watched the premiere of grey's anatomy on tivo, and contrary to the radio people's beliefs, it was quite on the amazing side. i can't wait until next thursday!

plus: can you believe we've already been in school for over a month!? crazy, i know.

talk

is what we do a lot of, isn't it. talk about people, talk about homework, talk online, talk on the phone, talk, talk, talk. talk about homecoming is what i've been noticing lately. i don't know. to go, or not to go. that is the question... (: what is that shakespeare? i don't know. but anyways. as of today, i have no date. i'm not really expecting anyone to ask, so it's all good. but i think it's cute how creative people are getting nowadays. just adorable!

people are very very confusing. they'll send a message about something and then go and do something completely different of what you expect them to. people suck sometimes.

on a happier note... yesterday qcup was a big success! we made quite a bit of cashmoney, so thanks and keep up the support! next fundraiser is t-shirt and wristband sales.
TSHIRT sales: October 6-10
WRISTBAND sales: October 6-15
support! support! support! please and thank you(:

also coming up, pack the house home football game tomorrow. will i see you there? lets hope.

i am a disappointment

to my mother, apparently. again. dude, i'm really bad at pleasing my mom this year. for some reason i want to get a little more freedom, you know be trustworthy and whatnot, and i end up pissing her off more. so i will not be going to the football game tomorrow night and will not be doing anything but homework over the weekend. being stupid can really screw up plans, so don't be, kids.
on a happier note, i finally got to hang out with guadalupe and actually talk. it's been a while but we caught up on everything and had a good time. especially with her swallowing her food and talking at the same time(: love you guada!
tomorrow's friday, finally. this week has been loooooooooooong.

*edit: i AM going to the game tomorrow(: i don't know what my punishment will be but, there has been an event that has changed my mother's view on whether or not i'm allowed to go tomorrow. yipee!

it's LIQUID!

yes, that's right, liquid. as in, awesome, cool, great. you can use it any way you'd like as long as you use it(:
anyways, i have converted yet another person to jonas-ism. geeze, i'm good! no, i'm liquid! haha, see that there? i just connected the two topics that i was rambling about. okay, enough of that. but yes, i have brought someone over to the jonas side and they said they would never like the jonas brothers. psh. impossible!
well, today i had my first soccer thing. it wasn't a practice or conditioning or anything. just a pick up game. but i have learned that i am completely out of shape. i'm kind of disappointed in myself because of it. over the summer i should have gone out running or something. but, i knew it was coming. i knew i was out of shape. oh well, at least i'm taking initiative now. better late than never, right?

to do list

1. get off of the internet
2. homework
a. chem worksheet
b. late spanish flashcards
c. spanish worksheet
d. look up unknown words in copy of "Letter from Birmingham Jail"
e. begin chapter 7 outline
f. begin lesson 2 sentences
3. check sister's homework
4. the hills at 7
5. gossip girl at 8

yay! to do lists give me an exact order of what i need to do. i know, i'm a nerd. you know what else makes me a nerd? i actually registered on schoolloop.com. yes, i'm a big giant nerd(:

+what's the hype about pictures where people are flipping the camera off?

it's been a while

but now i have something actually interesting to write about. so my friend told me about this band, which i will not name since i was told to keep them on the down low, but they are pretty amazing. their lead singer did a cover of a jonas brothers song and it was good. not as good as the original, but way better than i expected. so good job man who i shall not name.
so that was my interesting thing to write about. my life is pretty boring. and so is school. lately it feels like all i've been doing is school stuff. i feel like i wake up, go to school, skip most of my lunches to do leadership stuff (which isn't bad, it's just kind of pointless if there's no customers, therefore no reason to be there), go back to class, go straight home, do homework, help my sister with her homework and by that time it's time to go to sleep and do the same thing over again. and i feel like it isn't even paying off. i think i'm getting a C in AP history even though i've been working my butt off. i hope it will pay off in the end. i want to be able to get into a good school and then be able to support my family. it just feels like where i'm at now isn't leading me in that direction. i know that i should be grateful, and i am. some kids don't even have the chance to get an education like i am getting. so i just need to freaking suck it up and move on.

friday night football

at MHS was fun fun fun. before we went to the game, vy, victoria, meera, and i made signs. it was fun. i got to wear trevor's jersey and when i got into my mom's car after the game... she was a little pissed. it wasn't that i was wearing his jersey, but that i didn't tell her when he asked me to wear it. she thought i was "hiding" it. but i wasn't, it just wasn't that important. ugh. but i feel bad, because i know i was giving my mom attitude, which she didn't deserve and she was really upset, which is unusual for my mom. so i apologized and stuff but now she says that i'm "not responsible, not trustworthy, and not worth her time." i know when she said it it was out of anger, but i don't know. it just sucks that she thinks i'm not responsible or trustworthy. so i take it i'm grounded, but she didn't say anything. anyways, i need to figure out how to apologize and my mom believe it. well, other than that yesterday was pretty good.

time really flies?

well, we're coming up onto our third week of school and though the days seem long while i'm in the midst of them, the weeks seem to zoom by, if that makes any sense. i'm afraid i'm going to miss out. on what? i don't know. i'm just afraid that because i'm complaining in the middle of the day, i may miss out on something that could make or break my high school career. yeah, school and academics are important but the experiences in high school and throughout life really teach you and build your character. i've been thinking about this quite a bit lately and i really am somewhat scared of missing something. i ask myself: what if i did that one thing and became the richest person in the world? what if i had spoken up in class and then became the person who solved the global warming crisis? WHAT IF!? at graduation and beyond i don't want any "what if's" going through my mind. i don't want any regrets pulling me back. like the jonas brothers say (and yes, i know it's sad to quote them, but i think they're right):

"we don't have time left to regret, hold on. it will take more than common sense, hold on. so stop your wondering take a stand, hold on. cause there's more to life than just to live, hold on."

i don't care if you hate the jonas brothers, but you have to admit that those lines are pretty true. i want to live my life to the fullest i can, so if that means making a fool of myself in class then so be it. i just want to be the best me i can be. and in order to do that i need to make some mistakes, gain some knowledge, and have some great, and maybe not-so-great, experiences.

frozo's...

was pretty successful from what i saw. i was only there for all of ten or fifteen minutes, but when i got there it was packed, when i left it was even busier, and when i was walking home with meera more people were on their way there. so to everyone who went: thank you for your support. and to everyone who didn't go: i expect you to be at the next fundraiser! ha, just kidding. sort of.
anyhow, it was my first time at frozo's and i must say, it is pretty darn delicious! meera and i were saying that we probably would have enjoyed it more if it was as hot. not that frozen yogurt isn't good on a hot day, obviously. it was just that we were so busy complaining to each other about the heat, that we forgot how delectably delicious our frozen yogurt was.

and not only did we have "fun" complaining about the heat, we went on and on about the jonas brothers. *especially kevin, he's meera's favorite. i think she's getting to the point of OJD, but she doesn't think so. she says it's just "OKD". i think she's just in denial. oh! and i found this supercool shirt that i need to order for meera. it says "kevin jonas is my guitar hero". is that cute or what!? kay, this is getting a little obsessive. but that's what happens when you suffer from OJD.

school today was pretty uneventful. except for leadership, i guess. but i didn't get my cookie! ):

gone...

are the days of summer and vacation. yes, it's a little late i know, but i've been busy. and now that we have our first three-day weekend, why not start now? so we've had our first week back to school and from the first day, it's been a let down. i was excited for five minutes and then i wanted to go back to my loving bed and sleep. i miss summer, i miss the little kids i was entertained by every day, i miss the care free-ness we were allowed to have. now we're back in school and strapped down with loads of homework so we have no free time to do anything. do they wish to torture us? it sure seems like it. i know it will pay off in the future, but i just wish we had a few extra weeks of summer to play.
the highlights of my summer consisted of july 4th and july 15th. july 4th was the first time i really ever saw anyone because of my volunteer job and whatnot and july 15th could possibly be the best day ever. i went to the jonas brothers concert with tammy and it was absolutely amazing. i expected it to be good but not that good. the set was awesome, they sounded awesome, and they looked awesome, cause that's just the way they roll. i miss that day oh, so much. it's been a month and a half but it feels like it's been years. i hope they go on tour again soon. tammy and i made a pact to save our money for better tickets next time. i know i've been doing well (i've saved over $100) but i don't think tammy's doing that well. it's okay, we have time.

anyhow, back to the present. my classes this year are:
period 1: chemistry w/ seals
period 2: AP world w/ bielski
period 3: algebra 2 w/ mccartney
period 4: spanish 2 w/ l.vargas (portables vargas)
period 5: leadership w/ harris
period 6: english 2A w/ mellera
my teachers aren't bad, but it seems like not that many people are in my classes. i'll just have to make do with what, and who, i have.

i'm getting a puppy in a week(: i'm so excited. he's the cutest thing on the planet! i wanted to name him jonas, and tammy wanted me to name him kevnijo, but my sister said "no, courtney. that's taking your OJD way to far." and she was completely serious, and her face was so funny. but, she is right. that would be going a little overboard, even though i love those three boys dearly. so anyways, i think we're going to name him boots because his paws are white but the rest of his body is brownish. but we're not going to decide a name until we meet him. i mean, what if he doesn't look like a boots!? anyways, he's a puggle, a cross between a pug and a beagle. he's adorable. i can't wait to get him.

+don't forget to head over to Frozo's (near QCup) on Friday, September 5th from 3-7 to support c/o 2011. 15% of all proceeds within those times go to our class.

(EDIT)
the fundraiser at Frozo's on Friday, September 5th has been preponed to Wednesday, September 3rd from 2:30-5:30.